I have been going a 100 miles an hour since 5 am this morning, and it is now just past 9 pm, and I just got home.  WOW – busy freaking day.  School – Lunch – Psycho Doctor – Work – and now home.  My head is spinning, and I know I have forgotten something…

May is laughing at this moment – and a little stunned.  It is amazing how fast the construction guys are moving on the project.  All ready the foundation is poured and they have the framing set up for installation.  The contractor is a family friend of mine, and he guarantees it is going to be done fast and under budget.  I told him good, since I am not paying anything more. (Rolls eyes at her toughness)

I do think May is very excited about her new room but bless her heart. She was trying to tell me that the new room is for me.  I said NO WAY!!  We designed it for her, plus this is her house!  People that know May’s background realize what an amazing journey her life is…  she was just saying that when she was 14, living on the street and poor, she would dream about sleeping in her own room.  Never did she think she would have her own house.  LOOK AT HER NOW BITCHES!

So a couple of things as I sit here – weirdest thing today

I mentioned that Tom Baker called the other day and we briefly talked, so finally today we connected on the phone. OH WOW – He called me to ask me out.  OH MY!  Afterwards I went over to Baker and informed him that soon he will be calling me mommy.  LOL  - that freaked Baker out big time!

In reality I was really not interested, nor did I understand why he thought he could just call me up for a date.  I listened to him, and his explanation.  I am sorry though, I am not interested.  It was strange, and kinda out of bounds.  I do know that since his wife passed away, he had not been dating.  I am not sure if he was playing the sympathy card or what.  So what did I do?  I tild him to check back with me… wtf?!?  I guess the sympathy card did work with me…  shit, I use to be stronger…

In other news

Isn’t it great news from Sassy?!?!!!!  I am so proud of her, and to think she might be moving out here this summer is so fucking cool.

In school today, one of my major projects got a top grade.  I am so stoked.  I am in the crunch right now, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

I am going to have coffee with the note girl, just so I can mess with her.  Why not?  lol

Bella got outstanding grades – so my dad is rewarding her – but I am not so sure about the reward.  He is giving her a credit card.  OMG!!!  I had to wait until I was 16, so did T2 and I think so did C-woman.  But hey, he is the dad.  Whatever!  I am really proud of Bella, she has totally rebounded from the heartbreak, and she is now teaching herself Photoshop.  Did you know that she is now two grade levels ahead in math and in English?  One teacher comment was for her to think seriously about special high school so she can do it in three years.  So if she is doing sophomore things now, she will be done with high school in two years?  Shit!  For example, C-woman is in her senior year in high school but she is already talking college level courses.

I saw my Psycho Doctor today for my monthly check in.  She thinks I am making huge strides lately.  I did mention the mask thing two weeks ago.  She felt that at least I am making the decision and my awareness of all of it is important.  Her key is controlling my DID.  I think I am under much better control.  Yes medication, exercise and diet are important.  BUT, I really think it is this blog.  I really do.  I also think staying away from men like Tom Baker and ADP is important.  They feed my innder darkness.  Last year at this time, I was different.  I was still messing around with ADP.  I had lots of shit inside of me.  He brought a lot of shit out of me.  OMG, some day I will get the courage to really face my time with ADP.  Right now, I am not ready for it.  But I do believe that the blog is helping, now I just post the shit and it seems to go away.  I think my psycho is starting to understand my perspective on it.  Like they say, therapy is different for everyone.

T2 is a believer in the blog…  maybe we can get her to start one…  she wrote me a message, and she is going to expand upon it… and she says I can post it here…

—- sorry I am stuffing my face —-

It is not good to eat this late but I forgot to eat dinner.  nom nom nom

OH YEAH —-

Tomorrow is Thursday, and it is a long day at school.  Before school though, I am going on a fun date date thing – or thing that is not a date but with a guy – a total perv – so – oh yeah – he is a total perv – so that is tomorrow – stay tuned… fuck I am so horny…  it is not a real date per say, I just need sex and he wants to fuck my brains out so why not…  he has a nice cock…  oh yeah…  he is married but…  you know…  he is in town for the night – one of my old fuck buddies – oh so sad, remember when I said the fuck buddies broke up? -  He was saying that he has not had sex since then, I told him to masturbate before I got there.  I do not need a minute man – blah - lol

and lastly in ADH Land –  my mom is nutz!  OMG!!  Stay tuned!